Thursday, March 24, 2011

I Found Peace in the Kitchen Sink and other ho-hum Adventures

I just washed a huge pile of dishes but can hardly account for my time there.  I did a damn good job on the whole kitchen in fact, but can barely remember doing a thing.  Cleaning has become my "momma time".  I just zone out.  Pretty convenient way to unwind, but geeeez... my previous "me" time, b.c. (before children) was so much more creative!  I would paint for hours or write music and play the uke or guitar, well I was stoned for most of my 20's...  Now I clean.  Big fat WTF.  I suppose we are animals, constantly evolving to our new environments.  Now if Darwin would get off his lazy butt and mop the floors.... soo, this has been about 8 minutes of blogging, Asa is up demanding his boobies.  Also, before I go to the milking stall, got my first case of poison ivy for the year!  Hello Spring!

the best car I've EVER had.  EVER.

back before digital cameras were affordable... hitching somewhere in BC

Friday, March 18, 2011

Yellow Truck Man, Preparing for 2012

There is this old man (maybe 80) who drives a truck of a teenage boy.  Bright yellow little piece of shit with two black stripes down the center.  He spins his tires in front of my house, deliberately drives fast right next to me and my sons as we are walking along the road.  Now he's driving down our driveway or he'll pull up to the house and spin his tires in the gravel then pull off only to come back and do the same thing 3 or 4 more times.   We live out in the COUNTRY.  The "law" doesn't come when you call.  It's a lawless part of the state.  People will burn down your house if they don't like you for whatever reason.  I know I'm sounding pretty dramatic, I am dramatic, but it's the truth.  About 3 times a month, I lock my doors, close the curtains and peer out the windows waiting for some creep to move along.  One time I was walking with Jonah up to the house from the fields to find a guy shooting his gun right in my direction, right on our property! Just shooting away. I called the police, but they wouldn't do anything but send an officer out to take my statement.   I think about what life will be like if 2012 does happen.  I think about the logistics of surviving a fallen social society.  I figure I'll have to make alliances with the neighbors... work out a trade system... and guns.  Lots of them.  ... and cocoa powder, a girl needs to have her chocolate. I hope we can avoid a "Lord of the Flies" scenario... really don't want to be Piggy... We don't have cable.  Just an old TV and a netflix subscription... I need to catch up on survivor and hatch out my survival plan.  We've got all the foxfire books,  and some homesteading books too.  It's a full moon tonight. 

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Soooo... not crazy, well probably a little, but that could also be interpreted as personality.  Turns out my adrenals are super taxed.  I'm in a fixed state of fight or flight.  Try being amped up all the time, no really don't, it's not fun.  I'm on an adrenal support formula, see how it goes.  Not feeling the extreme lows lately, hoping it was just a bad week. 

Mushroom... keep your secrets to yourself.
Got about 1/4 or the small garden planted.  We're doing it in spurts.  Still need to lay out the seeds in the flats under the grow lights.  Went grocery shopping, everything is soooo expensive!  I've decided to do more wild foraging to lower the food bill.  Chickweed is on the menu!  Got some mustards... more dandelion... wild onions... who's with me??? yeah? no? 

Also, I'm smack dab in the middle of my saturn return.  Lameo.  Can't hide from saturn... not even out here in the middle of nowheresville.  Just me and Beth Orton, Hey Rosetta!, and... really, just us.  Winning... just like Charlie.

Monday, March 7, 2011


Oh... hell.  I believe I may have a touch of postpartum depression.  Didn't want to admit it because no one wants to be crazy.  Is it possible to have manic postpartum depression?  Today is starting off to be a good day.  Yesterday was not so good.  Sometimes I feel claustrophobic in my own body... my mind is racing all the time.  I think in narratives.  I can't sleep.  I find myself saying "I just want to die", and not even realizing what I'm saying.  Nothing seems to help when I go to that dark cave.  Today is a good day though.  Not all days are so shitty.  Nothing triggers these episodes that I can recognize... I cope, make it to the next day and pray.  I'm drinking some herbal teas, it seems to help.  Blah blah blah.... This too shall pass.  I will survive, I will endure... I should paint.. or do some sit ups.  I'm in my skinny-fat pants!  I've lost so much weight!  Having a baby will do a dooozy on a gal, physically and mentally.  Find balance.  Be still.  Mind your mind.  I came home from having Asa and weighed 155 lbs.  I'm 5'4!  Now I'm 135 lbs. (still 5'4).   I can wear a size 5!  it's not the prettiest thing you ever saw, but damn it, I'm. in. a. 5. Little victories.  I'm normally about 115 lbs.   me me me... whatever, this is MY blog after all. The sun is shining today.  

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Dandelion Salad and Roasted Root Coffee

Harvested some dandelions from our blueberry patch.  Took me all day to clean those little weeds.  Made a salad that night:

Dandelion Salad Recipe:

soak your dandelion plants, roots and all, in the sink. Rinse several times until the sink water is clear.

1. Pick the leaves and flower tops of the dandelion, only the pretty ones without the brown spots *I got about 3 cups full.  Leave the roots fairly intact and place them on the side.
2. Quickly chop the leaves, don't go crazy, just cut the them in 1/2

3. In a separate bowl, chop up an apple into tiny chunks *leave the skins on if you want* a green apple would be good but any apple will do
4. pour in equal parts apple cider vinegar, balsamic *red or white vinegar (about 1/8 cup each)
5. add a dash of olive oil and an equal amount of maple syrup and a touch of braggs or soy sauce
top it with feta crumbles, raisins and toasted sunflower seeds.  If you plan on eating it the next day, leave the dressing on the side.  For a little kick, top with some cayenne pepper and fresh lemon juice.

For the roots you have left over:  lightly scrub them clean, set them out to dry.  Once they are dry, place them in a baking dish/cookie sheet.  Heat the oven to 350, roast the roots until they snap completely in half and are crisp through and through.  Check on them frequently as some parts of the roots might cook faster than others.  Place the roots that are completely brown/dark brown in a separate bowl.  When all of your roots are finished roasting, blend them together in a coffee grinder or blender until they are a fine dust.  Brew the dandelion powder just like you would coffee.  Sweeten or add milk.  This is a healthy alternative to coffee and tastes great! 

Dandelion is great for cleansing the kidneys, it is a diuretic and cholerectic.  Definitely a plant worth studying.  *According to an ancient magical belief, if you cover the body in dandelion juice, you attract the sympathy of all those who are like you.  If you blow a tufted seed in the direction of your lover, all your thoughts will be sent to him or her. -from Wild Medicinal Plants, by Anny Schneider

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Morel of the story...

Waiting for the morels to pop!  We've had some good luck with them on the property in the past.  I make a pretty mean egg dish with morels, cutleaf coneflower, garlic... so yummy, makes a lovely breakfast.  Speaking of breakfast-  This morning Jonah was talking to me through his curious george monkey.  "Momma! Meeeeeilk (milk)" -monkey.  Then monkey insisted that I breastfeed him like Asa.  So there I am, Asa in the ergo, flipping pancakes and pretending to nurse my sons stuffed animal... for like 10mins.  The things we do to keep the peace. 

Hopefully I'll have time to hike the property with the kids and search for early mushrooms in the back holler.  One baby on my back in a hiker pack, one on the front in the ergo... It's time to harvest some dandelion root while i'm out there... I'd better make a to-do list.